It says here that this journal hasn't been updated in...24 weeks. What's that? 6 months? Well, I predicted that's what happens to weightloss journals.

Have I lost 2 pounds a week during those 6 months? HELL NO. I have lost and gained, but gone to my meetings faithfully and tried to be a more careful dieter. Instead of the 62 pounds (or thereabouts) that I'd set out to lose by this time, I'm lost 21. Still, I'm feeling pretty good about the 21 and plan to continue losing.

After walking The 3Day, I had gained 5.6 pounds. That was due to the water I had worked so hard to retain (in order to not dehydrate with the heat and the exertion). I couldn't seem to stop retaining it!

Nonetheless, I had an exciting loss this week. I had expected to lose at least that water weight, and I DID! Plus some extra - the scale showed a 9 pound loss! Now, in my personal accounting, only the 3.4 pounds COUNTS. But, OH! How exciting to have it show -9!

This week was HARD! I used purt'near all my flex points just eating right. Cathy is still cooking (56 more days, for those of you playing along at home) and still serving up the good stuff in gravy or some cream sauce or breaded and fried chicken.

Shepherd's Pie? That'd be beef, gravy, corn, and mashed potatoes. The addition of a green salad wouldn't have gone awry.

Anyway.

I LOST 2.6 POUNDS THIS WEEK!

*happy dances off, grinning*

Know what I love? I love cracking open the new week's Point Tracker, with all the allowance points still there. And the (I'm not kidding) joyous pleasure of checking off the things you're supposed to eat. 6 waters? No problem! 5 Fruits and Veggies? Yepyepyep! Milk...well, I try and often succeed. 2 Healthy oils. Huh. That's a little problem. (But I'm not having the problem that usually goes with it.)

Yeah, new point tracker! And you get one every week!

So, I lost 1.2 pounds this week. I have lost every week but one since the beginning of the year and I'm down almost 10 pounds, which is pretty good!

My MIL is back in the house though and I have a whole new series of challenges. When she is home, she does the cooking. I have been totally pissed for the past couple of days - she made homemade beer battered fried chicken the night before last, with homemade macaroni and cheese and a nice creamy cole slaw...none of which are the best things for me to eat and OH, I want to. The night before that it was chicken and dumplings. (mmmmmm, dumplings). The pot roast the night before that was pretty safe.

And that's not all she's done. She also made some very fine peanut butter blossoms and a Better-Than-Sex chocolate cake. I don't hate her, but I've been really mad for the past couple of days. When poor G asked me if something was bothering me, I explained that I even blame HIM, which I know is ridiculous. I told him I didn't want to be THAT asshole.

So I've had to battle this stuff. On the chicken and dumpling day, I just ate a big bowl of the garden veggie soup I keep on the stove. Yesterday, G kept a nice piece of that fish out for me and baked it with dill and lemon. I had some little boiled potatoes and fresh pineapple with that...all of which would have been absolutely delicious if that other stuff hadn't been on the table in front of me. Sigh.

The cookies. I figured them points at about 3 each. Decided I could have one and did. And then another and another and then one more. Yeah, I journaled them and assigned the points but I felt a little out of control and really sad. I finally made myself a little note which said "2 Pounds" and taped it to the cellophane over the cookies (I drew a couple of little hearts on it too, because NOT having what you want, even though empowering, can still be bit depressing.)

I broke down and had a piece of the cake - 12 points worth of cake, for the lovagod! I fought that most of last night, but when I finally had it, I was glad. Because I didn't like it that much! Certainly not 12 points worth. It can sit there on our counter til it turns into a brick, but I won't need to eat any more.

So. Between her cooking and the old lady parking in the garage (*my* parking space) and the godawful weather, I've got a lot of hatin' going on.

The two women I joined WW with decided that they didn't want to go out tonight, but I felt like I really OUGHT to go. And I'm glad I did.

Down another 1.2 this week. Not the 2 pounds I aim for, but I think I dieted nearly flawlessly again this week.

NOW I need to start adding some excercise.

Also, with the weight loss, I've had to deduct a point!

Hah! What I had meant to post the other day was that I'd put on an outfit that I'd gotten from freecycle. I liked it because it looked nice, but not too nice. It's kind of a lounge about outfit, but it's nice enough looking that you can wear it out as well. I wore it at tracytrumble's at Thanksgiving.

Anyway. I put it on on Sunday and it's a bit big now. HAH!

Superbowl food!

Let me make good choices, let me not eat too much, let Peyton WIN!

(Sorry Bears fans! I love your team too and if it was anybody but Peyton, I'd be cheering your guys on...)

Peyton!

It's a good thing I lost the little I did...

.2 pounds. Nice little travesty of the goal, huh?

I'd better loose QUITE a bit next week when I am not gaining hormone weight.


I was exceedingly good this week. I followed the Weight Watchers edict of "If you bite it, you gotta write it" perfectly. Not a thing went in my mouth that wasn't journaled and assigned a point value. If it went to the other things you're supposed to do (drink water, eat veggies, drink milk) I dutifully marked that down as well.

Since I know why I didn't loose that much weight, I'm not terribly discouraged. If fact, I kind of liked the feeling of control I was having and shall do the same this week.

Sigh.

Remember the add with the guy at gym? He weighs himself, puts on his headphones, runs around the gym once and gets back on the scale. Upon learning that he hasn't lost any weight, he smacks the scales indicator, like "how could that be right?"?

I totally identify with that guy. I always feel like, "well, I didn't eat dessert and I REALLY WANTED it, so that's gotta be worth a pound or two."


If only it worked that way.

If I haven't lost 2 pounds this week it will be because I'm expecting my period tomorrow.

Nonetheless, I will be PISSED!


Because I have been just about perfect this week!

Last night I made a snack with a premix of garlic, onions, and spices that I mixed with lowfat yogurt, rather than sour cream. I had that with carrots. The entire container of the dip is 6 points. Gary and I ate MAYBE half of it. Maybe.

So weigh in on Thursday found me PLUS .4. I know less than half a pound gain isn't terrible or even unheard of. It just puts me off from my longterm goal.

One of the ladies at my meeting says it's because I was wearing different clothes. Of course, I get that different clothes weigh different amounts, but unless the outfit I had on this Thursday weighed 2.4 pounds more than the one I wore last Thursday, that's not totally helpful.

My mother says it's diabetes related and she probably has a bit of the truth there. If you're insulin resistant, it can make it hard to lose weight. Not impossible, however. We might note that I'm down 8 pounds since the beginning of the year.

I personally think it might have something to do with ethnic food. I ate bad chinese for lunch one day. I had szechuan chicken, which shouldn't have too many points and I ate my rice steamed rather than fried. I went out for thai on Wednesday night and had beef and green beans with jasmine rice, which was delicious and probably not full of points. However, I had some of Patty's entree, which was called Amazing Chicken and included a nice peanut sauce. She also had a yummy thai iced tea and I drank some of that and we had some appetizers that doubtless we shouldn't have - some fried shrimp and chicken patties and some crispy noodles.
I don't think I'm going to give up ethnic food anytime soon though, so I'll need some better strategies for dealing with this, but that can't include don't enjoy some of all the delicious food!

I was also a little careless with other food this week. So I'm making an effort this week to follow the rule: If you bite it, you gotta write it. And I'm trying to get in some more physical activity.

I'm still on track for my big goal, but I won't be for long, if I keep this up.

At our weight watchers meetings, we put marbles in a jar when we lose weight. I like to put mine in one at a time, and I do it pretty theatrically and everyone applauds and laughs and I take a bow. Or dip a curtsy. Or whatever.

I got to put 5 marbles in the jar today - he do one for each half pound lost. Weeeeelllll, I really only lost 2.2 pounds, but we round up. Of course.

Mmmm. Blase much?

I LOST 2.2 POUNDS THIS WEEK!!!!!

*happy dances*

Well, I didn't update after my weigh-in, because I'd gained 1.8 lbs. GAINED?!?!?! How do you do that? Well, I know how it was done and what accounted for it, but that didn't mean I didn't hate it or that I wasn't depressed, considering how good I've been. The only thing that helped was being reminded that due to the big loss the prior week, I was still on track - and that really was reassuring.

I feel pretty confident that I'll have lost this week - by rights it should be 3.8 lbs, right, but who knows.

ANYway, the woot in the title is what I wanted to write about. I'm talking to some kids today about insurance and I was having trouble finding something to wear. I pulled out my brown etc striped linen pants, but the black shirt that I wanted to wear with it is in the laundry (and you'd think SOMEONE would DO some laundry pretty soon!), so on a whim I pulled out my black looks-like-leather-but-its-not shirt that I haven't worn for a while because it was too tight. Wonderful! Fits fine! But doesn't look so great with the pants. Now, it would look good with that black pinstriped suit that I also can't wear. Put on the pants to the suit - Fits Fine! Tried the jacket! Also FITS FINE! So.

WOOT!

I hardly ever feel nervous or excited about the weekly weigh-in, but I do today. I think I've done pretty well getting to the 2 pound goal this week. I ate a sandwich I shouldn'tve yesterday for lunch, but (shhhh!) I'm not eating all my daily points. Pretty soon I reckon that'll have to change, but right now, I think I'm doing ok.

BUT. I have my period. This is a continuing nuisance, as I my cycle is 22 days. 22 Days! That's crazy, but that's what it is. And historically, I've found that I GAIN about 2 pounds at this time - yeah, it's not "real", it doesn't really count, but I'm being so careful and I want the numbers to show it, dammit!

So I'm eating careful lunches, and I generally find them pretty yummy. In fact, I'm pretty smug about all my food - everything I eat is especially delicious be design.

I also spend some plenty of time being hungry, which is something Weight Watchers thinks I shouldn't do, but right now I'm full of will power (I repeat my mantra pretty often!), so that's too bad. :p I'm sure later I'll be moved to trick myself other ways, but this is what's working now.

ANYway, I'm eating some lovely lunches, but I don't end up full. So I pack a snack. The past couple of days it's been an orange. And when I'm done with lunch I remind myself that later I'll have a snack.

The problem is, I forget! I eat a pretty late lunch usually, but generally around 4:00 I'm HUNGRY! And then I remember my snack, which is great. But dinner isn't until 6:00 and the orange isn't being enough.

I need either a more filling lunch or a more filling snack, but neither can be too difficult because, after all, I'm supposed to be working.

It's something I need to ponder.

Just before I became rededicated to the whole 2 pounds/ Weight watchers thing, I was seriously considering where I could by an extension for my seat belt. Several times when I tried to fasten it over my winter coat and scarf I had trouble and became frustrated and drove without it, or cried.

It's just one of those things that nobody needs...

Since then, the weather has been really mild and I've been wearing my leather jacket (which is a lot less bulky) and I don't have any trouble buckling up when wearing that.

This morning though, the tv news warned that the weather was going to turn ugly, so I bundled up - I feel like that little kid in A Christmas Story.

When I approached the car, I suddenly had feelings of trepidition and all those other hateful things that come when you're reminded that you're really just too fat. I sat down behind the wheel and prepared to do battle.

And clicked the buckle into place! There's still not a lot of room there, but hooray! A nice start for the day and a great reminder that all I need to do is lose 2 pounds.

I made some lovely cabbage soup today. It's a weight watchers recipe (mostly) with 0 points. And of course, it's full of veggies and GOOD for you.

My new(est) plan is to eat that soup before dinner, and sometimes for lunch. It will help fill me up and make sure I get my veggies and OMG YUM!

I'm keeping it on the stove, so I can grab some whenever I feel like, because soup is warm and delicious, and I'm going to add left over vegatables and water as necessary. I expect by the end of the winter I'll have my own version of 100 year old soup. :)

Oh! And breakfast today - 1 cup lowfat yogurt, 1 cup sliced strawberries and a shake of wheat germ all mixed in a bowl. I figure 5 point meal and quite delicious.

So, I've been on Weight Watchers for almost a year and a half and I've gained 4 pounds. Lallallallallala!
(I haven't done weight watchers all that well, have I?)

Anyway, new year, new plan, right?

Yep.

My new plan is to loose 2 pounds. Who can't loose 2 pounds? Now, included in the plan is to loose 2 pounds PER WEEK, because it's important to have goals.

So on Tuesday I really started behaving myself. I've been pretty hungry a lot of the time, actually. I didn't insist that I loose 2 pounds this week, because it was a short week in terms of weightwatching - I go on Thursdays nights. As I said to my husband, I just want a little boost.

Weighed in last night and GUESS WHAT?????

I lost 7 pounds!!!!!

*yay, go me!